Showing posts with label Hurt. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Hurt. Show all posts

Sunday, March 29, 2009

Love...

I found my wedding ring in the metal heart on what used to be my side of the bed. Is it a message?

Love, what a strange feeling and emotion. Perhaps in the beginning, we had Love. After many years and injustices, love had died. Love is gone. Perhaps this is a metaphor for our love, Cold and Hard, like the metal heart that the symbol of love is in . The ring is placed in a cold, metal heart; like mine and hers has become in this relationship. Shiny, silver, stainless, white gold, but cold like our hears towards each other.

Perhaps, we did love each when we took the vows of marriage, but we do not or did not know how to love each other or what kind of love the other one needed. Or if we did try to love, it was spurned by the other and we thought that it was an injustice and a personal affront. We could not deal with how the other loved us and we wanted more than they could give. Even if we tried to do something about it, it was killed and the cycle would start again.

What one person needed as love the other could no give and they could not be happy with it; each needing it they way they wanted it, never giving to the others demands of how LOVE should be.

Perhaps this, in the end, is what and how our love died; with two cold metal hearts to one another. Not meaning that we can never love again, just never love each other again. Perhaps if we can take one thing with us in this ending, perhaps we can learn from our mistakes, perhaps our hearts can love again somewhere down the long road that is our life. Perhaps somewhere down that road, we can try to forgive the other person of their injustices against one another and make peace in the soul and spirit...

Like Dr Strange Said, "It is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all." I guess that we tried to love and we all lost in the miserable end, killing what we once had, if only for a little while, that strange and wondrous thing called love...





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Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Hurt?

We have been through a lot and there is a lot of water under our bridge; perhaps the flood has come and the footings are gone for good without any chance of recovery or repair this time.

Why do we always hurt the ones we love? Why do we continue to repeat the same cycle of hurt that happens over and over again? When we hurt them, they hurt us and we cant break the cycle. It continues and continues till any and all love is gone from the heart.

Who is totally to blame? I know i am a hard person to live with but so is she. Why does this cycle feed off of itself? We all see injustices in our little world that we perceive to be done to us that hurt and then we retaliate against that hurt; thus beginning the cycle over again.

I was told that only a miracle will ever make her love me again...

I do not look for one of those to ever occur in this instance of the word.

Perhaps we have grown apart and this is the end of that growth; where we really do not care what is going on with eachother or in the others world...