New Life(s)

In the past 20 years i have lived more than a lot of people would have ever wanted to. I have been a party person, a student, a friend, a dad, a husband, a lover, a cheat, a lair, a thief. I have lived so many lives that i care and dare not try to name them all. I am now living another life that i thought would never happen; it was in my head that it could happen. I hoped that it would not come to what it had to before this happened to me.

Many lives that we all lead, this is one i did not want to ever have to live, a divorced 37 year old with no children of my own. Now i am faced with a very hard and strange choice. DO i want to have a child of my own with someone when and if i find someone special or do i want to stay a single man or married with no children and have they type of life?

I have a friend(s) that has a 6 yer old son and just had another baby at 40. He is a Doctor in Virginia. He has the means to live like that and have another kid at 40.

Living so many lives makes it hard to settle down and try to focus on a single life to lead when the time should come for that. I wonder where this life that i have now will lead me...


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