What a Day...

It has been a while since i have written anything on here...Thanksgiving.  What does it men to you?  I miss my daughter, i miss my old life that i had even if it was not good, i still miss it.  I miss my old friends that i have left over the years all over the county.

It has been a hard day for me today...

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Asking Questions

I asked her if she loved me on Sunday. She shows no remorse to the answer but stated that she did not, not love me, just that it is life and cut your loses and move on. If it hurts her, i cannot see it...

What machine we become. Are we all so tainted? In the business world that all she can see is loses and gains like on a business ledger? Life is, i guess a business in some aspects, but when we depersonalize to that extent, what is left? A business deal that feel through, a contract that was broken? I like to think that i am more than a balance on a ledger sheet in this world, but i guess that i am no more than that to her...


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Been A While...

It has been a while since my last post. It was hard for me Easter Day. Very hard. It was Easter 1 year ago that i was out in this area looking for a new home with my soon to be EX-Wife and daughter. It is funny how things can change in 1 years time. I know that it has taken more than 1 year for things to get like they are but that doesn't make it any easier.

I want to tell my ex how i feel about all of this and how she acts as if nothing can hurt her. Like she does not even care that i am leaving. I wonder if i could have done more than what i did or didn't do to make whit work. But in the end, it really does not matter. It is over and i accept it. She seems to be moving on with her life and making plans, why should i not do the same?

As my good friend told me, "This is the Summer of my life" about to begin...


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D.I.V.O.R.C.E.

Well, the big D work has hit me. I filed yesterday. I feel better than i have in a long time. A great weight has been lifted from me. I want to be amicable in this whole deal but a sleeping beast has been awoke...